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life is hard and death is easier, pain is part of living
we all make mistakes and can be forgiven but some things are hard forgetting
the winds of chance can switch in seconds, unconciously life can switch directions
if you should ever subdue to pressure look to the sky and move towards heaven
aim for the stars and nothing less, dreams can become reality
let no one convince or restrict you to a formality
stand strong and hold your ground lifes battles rage on heavily
give in not to sweet temptations show dicipline and longevity
fight for the holy one above us, cast aside the words of sinful others
tread carefully brother for the demons live amongst us..

It's My Time

my strength is back once again i am relaxed my mind is calm thoughts all intact
i walk alone but stand united i am my own person and i don't care who likes it
i have been through the waste survived the ridicule and hate now for the truth i await
i will not let the evil take hold of me can't give satan control of me
i look at poetry as my own qoutes of peace i wish i could speak out amongst the streets
a message to all my people come with me put down the guns because we've won were free
its our time to shine, our chance to rise i will hold the sword of righteousness against the lies
if i'm to die i'll advance to sky content knowing i had the chance to try

I Wonder

i sacrificed half my life so i can surpass the wrath of christ evil will be destroyed tonight
you give to recieve in life, generosity's perceived as being nice sometimes life gets so hard i wait for someone to give me the knife
a kind heart is tormented, to the evil i've been born witness i write with intelligence i was born gifted
i wonder if the storm shifted are the evils of the world lifted it be good versus evil but the lord flipped scripts..

Reminise

i have alot of bad tendencies peace defeats my enemies i never knew how much you meant to me
i admit i made a few mistakes jealously would soon brew hate kindness for weakness from you i'd take
i ask god to please forgive my sins if i could get the chance again i'd be a loyal and romantic man
i know i lied right to your face not knowing love would soon erase i let the evilness consume my fate
now i pursue my faith i wish that i could just redo mistakes its different now and its for you i state
at times i've spoken vulgar determination baits my hunger my heart burns but it makes me stronger
never meant for you to feel such pain a righteous mind i will sustain and from the temptation i will refrain
my life was a pattern so sequential broke through my barriers now show potential an open heart is what i present you
i ask you can i be forgiven fed up with my indecent living the evil that lives in me diminished
i refuse again to be aggressive as i mature i show progression honestly i can say i learned my lesson
just wish i could rewind it all not worried and nevermind the cost
my thoughts stop and my mind is lost..

Eternal Love

i don't think you'll ever understand just how you've touched my life
no sense of me to lie how i've been living just not right
i don't think you could ever know just how special you really are
even on the darkest nights you are my brightest star
i don't think you will ever comprehend how you've made my dreams come true
or how you've opened my heart to love and all the things it can do
you've allowed me to experience something very hard to find
unconditional love that exist in my body, soul, and mind
i don't think you could ever feel all the love i have to give
and i'm sure you'll never realize you've become my will to live
you are an amazing person and without you who knows where i'd be
having you in my life completes every part of me
into my world of dark and silence you brought light and music
i understand how having love feels great i don't want to lose it
when you lit my fire, i began to see and understand the taste of love
i want you by my side for ever until i reach the gates above..

I'm Home

i close my eyes and vision peace i know its hiding somewhere
fall to my knees and pray to god that my happy days will come near
i want to laugh, don't want to cry i've shed massive tears for grouped years
the thought of never making it that would be my true fear
heaven or hell its hard to tell when i die which one i'll enter
my frosty heart is cold as december drink juice and liquor as my ember
misery keeps me company on the daily cannot escape it
its as if i wrote my life in ink regardless of cannot erase it
walk aimlessly down a dark path hoping the light develops
or will the evil box me in, the venom silently envelops
my life is bad no need ta cry, still i wish for better days
i hope and dream and wish and pray for things that never came
if i should die before i wake i ask the lord to take my soul
the lights around the gates to heaven is what i pray i'm shown
I'M HOME..

What?

the shining stars the singing birds cool breezes all around me
take flight like kites with hopes to fly with god its hard to ground me
i see evil in the distance black as midnight lurking quietly
i turned my life toward christ and know the demons want to silence me
not a rebel nor reckless but i live by my decesions
look deep into my mind and soul to see divine intentions
stand strong black brother for if we divide we fail
why is it that the only thing that we can find is jail?
a gun is your best friend tell me how can that be possible
that same gun would kill you, how can that be loigical?

Confusion And Terror

the saddest part is that i never made it past the dark
i feel as if i really do not have a heart
my state of mind is pain and crying
i feel like the life i live is a waist of time
each day i wake and pray to god asking that i can make it out
sad to say but truthfully written death is what i think about
stuck in the middle, good or bad don't know which path to follow
kill myself with alcohol its my gladness in a bottle
easy to hate but hard to love, why i don't understand
smoke and drink my hope is faint, cant figure why i don't really care
i need to find a better way so that i may see better days
if life's a bitch i will let her lay don't know if i will let her stay
i'm me to the end so you can hate it or love it
weird enough but true as hell, i hate that you love me..

Street Poet

i see it i want it i know its there
my cold heart tears but no one cares
the pain consumes me endlessly
when i die hope you remeber me
my life was never fair at all
know how to fight nigga i'm not scared of yaw
need go to come enlighten me
and i understand that life not free
these lame niggas never liking me
remain the same until i'm deceased
don't want to war but i will don't try
i'll slaugher yours on the real no lies
my art of war full of skill i'm fine
need peace, wont stop untill its mine
god the one i answer to
talk dumb i will not answer you
liars lie adn thats the truth
i'm taking mine fuck asking you..

The Right Way

i dream about success frequently forever wonder if i can grab it
via the skills the lord bestowed upon me, my talent to write with passion
sometimes i wonder if my life will take the drastic turn
for good and righeousness or will be another brother to crash and burn
never have i been the nicest person evil is still surrounding me
sometimes i look to escape this earth and search for finding peace
look past the nigga here and see the good inside of me
had violent year but try to clear a bright path for you to follow me
shed silent tears my time is near, feel suffocated when i try to breathe
or could it be the pain of wathcing real men become a dying breed
if i'm to die today i will not fight, give my mom a kiss goodbye
remember me for who i was not what i did to get me by
show no emotion as i pass wondering if i will fly or fall
i'm gone now so live your life the right way incase you die tomorrow

Take Me There

take me there to peace and joy no longer should i cry
take me there to heavens gates i'll live longer when i die
take me there to my grandfather i can see him watching over me
take me there where pain can't live and the evil can't get hold of me
take me there to kneel and pray and to repent the sins i have
take me there where the kids dont eat i swear to them i'd give my last
take me there to see my mother and ask why did she abandon me
take me there to god himself so i may ask why he hid my family
take me there to my siste i can see she's having problems
take me there to better habits so i can put down the bottles
take me there to meet true love i long to have a soulmate
take me there from prisons reach i don't want another cellmate
take me there where colors dead and racism don't exist
take me there words are pure and women are not reffered as bitch
take me there where it is on rain just bright and easy days
take me there please god i ask that you wont leave me stray

No Sight

i sit alone outside, feel the cool wind passing me
trying to live my life right and do what the lord ask of me
catastrophe comes naturally feel dead so i don't have to sleep
fire and passion burn strong see no time in relaxing
wonder if i'll meet god when i die, take me as is
my heart colder i'm a lost soldier on this battefield called life
please just open your eyes and see that the battle is my life..
empty beer bottles and cigarettes, spoils of war
i know that god is testing me to see if i'm pure
past years often bother me, outgoing you wont silence me
fulfillment in life, to feel alright is what i'd die to reach
i've set goals with blessed roles i know i'll make it through the threshold
lord i been frozen stiff in the pain i was left gnome...
i've been told i'm narrow minded and i'm heartless
but thats not the case, i'm just blinded in the darkness

Good Love?

excuse me miss but can i have a minute
to talk no need to brag on bitch shit
i was looking and i seen you fine
had visions i could deem you mine
god must of been showing off with you, an angel straight from heaven
and what a day it just could be if god made you my blessing
i see that you saw me in the distance peeping you
baby tell me how this sounds..? me and you
i have loyalty no lies, just me and you
the right thing for your love i'd be pleased to do
just take the time to notice i'm far from the average man
me and you should get together whenever thats the plan
i know your worried wondering if i'm going to break your heart
i'm blinded by your beauty cant see the evil you made it dark
i want to hold you in my arms and let you feel the love i have for you
are you really there for me though, this is what i'm asking you
please don't get mad and ignorant no need to catch an attitude
because if i knew you had good love for me it would be no point in asking you..

Keep my eyes open

i'm like a flower in a pot, take growth or die and shrivel
my life's confusing enough no time to solve a riddle
people judge me by my outer layer don't see the man inside me
five years from now i'm really wondering where i'll be
every word i write is true, thoughts stuck on my mind
i hope that you acknowlege me for my good before i die
i hate the life i live for real no sense of me in crying
sometimes i wish i was white, no sense of me in lying
regardlesss of the pain i try to keep the faith and move on
if you tell me i got problems, fuck it for real who don't..

Special

your smile, your touch, your feel, your lips
thank god because for once i feel convinced
words just can't describe the feelings i hide deep within my heart and soul
i feel warn as sunrays before i met you my heart was cold
its good to know that someone cares it really keeps me on the right path
for you i'd give my life today, i love you if you might ask
no need to even wonder if my words hold truth behind them
for you my passion roars stronger than the biggest lion
i swear on everything i have that i will never do you wrong
i will give you space and separation if ever you should long
but if you wish to stay with me and unify as one
then you will be special until my life is done

Undisclosed

the beauty of love shines as bright as if i walked with christ
but why do i walk down a dark path and i have lost the light
i seek history to give me peace
the passion grows inside me, please give me reach
a concrete rose i rub against my face
depression and sadness this is my fate
i try to be a soldier stand strong in battle
i never stole for fun but because i had to
god touched my soul i could feel his hand
the say the new world is real please reveal the land
i have to make it this is my destiny
21 years some hard but god was blessing me
stand srong resist and fight the evil
we are all the same, we live our life as people

This Life I Live

i try hard to do right but its just not easy in this life i live
hated on because my skin is brown in this life i live
acknowledged only for the wrong things i do in this life i live
i wish hatred and evil would disappear in this life i live
lost and confused i walk with no guidance in this life i live
wish the lord would come down and show me the light in this life i live
i swear i try my hardest to steer clear from the devil in this life i live
nobody wants to help or even care for me in this life i live
everday i'm filled with anger and frustration in this life i live
sometimes i sit and question god in this life i live
look to the sky and wonder if i will see bright days in this life i live
god if you can hear me forgive me for my foul actons in this life i live
honestly sometimes i wish i could just die and end this life i live

High Gravity

They say fate can be the brightest star
death is easy life is hard
if i had to speak about my life thus far
i would say i should be twice as far
temptation has always been hard to fight
everyday i seem to choose the wrong for right
think of blacks in the 60's who longed for rights
makes me feel cold inside, heart frosted ice
the past and present affect my future
we need to learn to forgive and forget like luther
if you play the game to win you wont live like losers
if you need a friend please follow me
the pain and anguish hit hard and bottled me
i'm a alcoholic so you know the bottle be
real close to home, cant lie thats me...

Slowly Diminished

feel the strongest pain blind to joy as if I lost my sight
Lord why am I given the hardest days and the darkest nights
I try to be a leader take a portion for the team
But get only pain and misery I'm even tortured in my dreams
I relax and try to take it slow my life is far from finished
When you get no love from others though for real it's hard to give it
I try to be a good man keep the lord inside my life
But miss the word and get deterred when demons block my line of sight
Jealously and hatred is all I see around my block
Young and misled niggas quick to get gunned down by cops
No one seems to care act as if its nothing out the usual
Just another nigga dead and another fucking funeral
God if you can hear me tell me why the world is like this
Or could it be the end is near if so no need to fight it
Forgive me for the hate I speak and the mistakes I'll make forever
But save a place for me lord please inside the gates of heaven
And if I'm due to cast away and burn inside eternal fire
Then lay me down and take me now my life is worse then dying

Beauty Of Love

You might hear me smashing rhymes, or you might see me blasting nines
But you're the passion I, need to keep my ass in line
Won't ever hurt you boo fuck what I told you, you'll understand this once I show you
My heart and soul is what I owe you, if you only knew how much I wan' hold you
I think about you frequently, you are the missing piece to me
Despite what I might say don't want the day to come you leaving me
What I'm saying not a lie its true, finally found a dime its you
I know you know I'd fight for you, guess what I'd give my life up to
I told you I was thuggin' baby, yea some things I do are fucking crazy
But without you as my comfort baby my life really be nothing baby
For a while all I would feel was rain, thanking god for real cuz still I'm sane
My mood might change I'm still the same, girl you stole my heart and healed my pain
Its been a while since I done shed a tear, my vision here but never clear
Wit you I'm feeling better yea, cuz you give me something that was never there
You are my freshest breath of air, gave me strength now I aint never scared
My life it wasn't never fair, if you need me girl you bet I'm there

Blind Spots

I'm a chill type of person still though I'm a thug
I got feelings for this girl but I don't know if its love
Think it over I'm not sober but I'm controlling the drugs
I'm a soldier is what I told them I'm suppose to get love
Still though I pray to god asking that he watching over
Alaska freezing but for real yo my block is colder
All I want to do is live life in a peaceful state
Haunted by my past mistakes its like I sleep awake
Cant lie need liquor because its getting me focused
Friends kill with that in mind keep an eye on you're closest
If you ever seek joy know this, god got the potion
Still my mind stays dirty like a box of roaches
I have never been a fan for the smiles or the happiness
Blank stare no words if you ask me this
Money be the root of all evil I believe it
Because everyday I wake up hoping I achieve it
I'm Hurting…

I'm Me

i'm deeper than the largest ocean feel my soul with every sentence
i'm warmer than the hot sun on a summer day come close and feel my passion burn
i'm brighter than the biggest diamond no second-guesses I have achieved it
i'm braver than the strongest lion no man or beast can tame my adrenaline
i'm higher than a eagle in flight look up and see my joy
i'm darker than the midnight sky feel the evil circle me silently
i'm peaceful as still island waters your invited flow with me
i'm calm as symphonic melody my life's to short to be miserable

Love Hurts

They say love will make you happy buts its not easy to find
True love is what will make you smile a true gift from the sky
No matter what another says love cannot be stolen
But it's clear to see if its lust not love hearts will sure be broken
When you love someone its not hard to tell they are always on your mind
You want to give them everything your heart, your soul, your time
This is when you feel your heart take flight; love can brighten up the darkest night
Make the coldest weather warm; when you feel like this you pray it's never gone
Funny what this love thing can do, feels good to know that someone thinks of you
You love them and they love you, and you love the fact that they love you too
Your heart has never beat so smoothly, the passion plays its part
With this in mind then tell me why some people get a change of heart?
To me it means that love was never really there at all
Or if it was it wasn't true love and like are not alike
Be careful whom you give your heart because sometimes they will hurt you
But if the love is true know what you do? Take your time and work through…truth

Thoughts Of An Outcast

The sky shines bright so smooth and light
I try to use my life to move towards Christ
I live and learn but happy days are hard to find
Seek weed and liquor as a way to calm my mind
Live good to die good and receive your blessings back
Confuse because my mood gives the image death is bad
My heart is cold as the artic breeze feels like joy has set apart from me
It really isn't hard to see that my happiness is hard to reach
Silent solider I wont talk for weeks but pray to god my heart to free
Showing love is really hard for me when I don't even have a heart for me
Constant pressure makes me feel like I am never safe
Lord I pray when I lay to rest tonight that I might never wake
Look towards the sky with hopes to levitate
I want peace and freedom from the devils place..